Loss For Words

I’m hoping for future Wednesdays to be more lighthearted than today, because if I can get my crap together I’ll be starting a weekly feature. It was one of the last assignments on Blogging 101, to start a recurring blog feature, but I am nowhere near prepared for that.

Today, I have more important fish to fry. Today, I’m grieving. And, lucky you… you get to hear about it.

I lost two long-term, favorite clients on Saturday. One was an 89-year-old woman who brought me joy every single week for the past 15 years. The other was a 56-year-old woman who brought me joy every 5 weeks for the past 15 years. They were both absolutely wonderful, beautiful people, and my heart is reeling with the spaces that they each have left there.

This is the hardest part of my job. At the same time, it’s one of the best parts of my job. I know, that seems like a weird thing to say, but it’s true. I even had a client remind me yesterday (when she saw my tears) that without these wonderful ladies, I would have missed out on so many happy moments in my life. You don’t know what you got til it’s gone, right?

Honestly, I did treasure them both here on Earth.  I let them know how I felt about them on more than one occasion.  And, I’m so thankful to have the memories. These people brought me joy, immeasurable joy, and my life was forever changed by knowing them. So, even though my tears are flowing, and I wish I could have these wonderful ladies back, I’m joyful because I knew them at all.  It makes it all worth it.memory

I’ll be better next week, so hang with me.